You know what to Expect

[Of Paths not Taken] Croxt:

All caterpillars have the divine capability to one day become butterflies. It's chances mostly and hope and carefulness and the ability to be patient that sets it free. We are given fires we do not know how to play with and if we miss a step we walk right into them and its burning. A skillful soldier knows when to step into the battlefield and you don't call for war when you're not ready. To be skillful, practice is needed. You can never be realistic if you're not real to yourself. You dream too big and it's okay. You dress the part and it's okay. They don't believe in you yet and it's still okay. You ask yourself too many questions and it's also okay. At least you know what to expect. Nobody ever told you it was going to be easy and you've grown enough to see that it's not. Hardened hearts are like onions to me. They make me cry sometimes. Why would you break the trust you had in yourself because someone broke the one you had in them? The hardest you fight on, the brightest your butterfly wings become. It's a given but you have to earn it. Stay strong and stand your ground. Move your will beyond the horizon. To be out of reach, each step counts. You get what you expect and if it's disappointment you're afraid of, don't be disappointed in yourself. Learn to fear nothing. Learn to embrace change. Learn to grow no matter the environment. Learn to be the best version of only yourself. Yet when you dive into your possible possibilities, don't dive in too deep to lose yourself. Love yourself enough to know what's enough; without setting for less. The wings are already inside you. You just have to learn how to work them. And once the sun is out, the leaves will be expecting you to land on them. You already know what to expect.

Turtles in Turtleneck Sweaters

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Always dress the part, unless you're different on the inside and way above other's expectations. I can imagine a giraffe with a longer turtleneck or a kangaroo in tights; jumping her way to the dinner table. We carry only what belongs to us as we let the earth swallow its dust. At High Park station, I met a friend. A friend in need; a friend indeed. A friend in deed; a friend with solutions. I realize now that not everyone who's there to help will help but at least you have some people you can count on. I survive on a daily dose of prayer and changes in routine have given me better experiences. If there are things I know for certain; let bettering myself be one of them. I know where to step ever since I knew where to start. I have the ignition dates printed in my heart and I have fallen in love with this journey to the best version of myself. I will give you nothing less. You get what you give; if it's something to go by, I get the best version of experiences wherever I go. People are free to be themselves around me and to be honest, I've had really meaningful conversations with people from many walks. Yet I do not credit it to any part of my doing but to the ability that I am who I give. & I'll give the best. I'll try my best. I'll stay the best. No comparison intended, I only compete with myself. I know where I want to go and I clearly know what's important to me. I should mention that we are who we want to be if we present ourselves to the right situations that define us. If you ever have a problem understanding what I say or what it means; ask me a question. That's how we learn. Yet, it's never that serious if you believe that you're on the right path. I'll say a million things and still make sure they are all spoken when they were needed. I don't force my thoughts, I let them take shape. I let them exist and I learn from them as well. I am on a mission to keep on going and to keep on going and when the time is right, my shell will give way to the wings underneath. Turtles could be something else too.

FixzBanger: The Antidote

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The silver moon could hold on longer if the golden sun did not show up on time. It's called taking responsibility. If people depended more on it, maybe it could shine even brighter. The street lights have progressively taken over its job and it could only happen because it wasn't really enough and people needed to feel a lot more safer. So the subway tracks sometimes get you home faster if you live right next to the station than your car could. But sometimes it's easier staying alone. Royals and merchants know nothing about missing the train and the bus having to stop at every single stop. It drains you when you have to walk because you don't have enough coins for the token you need to get home while it frustrates you if you forgot to fill up the car the night before and now you're empty. Empty pockets do not give a smile to the beggars on the street and neither does closed car windows. To find you must search and to search you must know where to start. So you don't burn bridges unless you can swim even in the cold. Or if you have enough money to replace the other one. They say you're hit hard where you fear the most that's why I encourage people to never let fear get the best of them. Jogging to work is an option too if you want to lose weight but sometimes you gain because you have nothing to lose. Schools are where we go to to learn but the way it's set up; you run out of funds, and time, and sometimes confidence. Your family is supposed to be there for you but you make it hard for them or they make it hard for you so what are both of you saying? I hear Thanksgiving dinners are full of ungrateful conversations. Friends usually are there for each other but when money is not involved. True friends understand. Yet people are different and some of this is made up. Pineapples are good and sweet and juicy but not for your teeth. I have an antidote and it's quite simple. You make your life count each moment and you better love yourself now you could be running out of ideas.

Calming Nation

[The Name is Ditiem] Croxt:

Calming Nation: where your fears go to die. I am the President of a country that knows rest. Peace is the air we breathe and happiness is the music we dance to. We have our own problems but we deal with them in time. We rise when we fall; we ride through every stop. Our constitution allows everyone to grow; knowing for a fact that that is what we are here for. Expression is allowed and we have learnt to embrace our differences. The fear-mongers are shunned and their power is stripped off. The afraid are taught how to overcome and we don't force things, we let them become us. We are winners of battles we do not have to fight and when the enemy is upon us; they've chosen their predicament. We pick the battles that are necessary and evil will never find its way into our hearts. We defend the weak and protect the vulnerable. We speak up against unfair and unjust treatment and we remedy the things that ail us. Our anthem symbolizes us and our flag is painted in our hearts. We have found harmony and peace and that is necessary. We have loved the atmosphere we exist in knowing well that we would be comfortable even if we had to live elsewhere. We have joined forces with our friends and we treat our enemies with respect. We help wherever we can and build everything that is beautiful. You see, we are compassion and compassion is us. Bullies are not given an ear and to step on our toes is to injure your feet. We are responsible and respectable while at it. We do not compete for favours; we do what is right. We show up on time and rightly so. We learn where we fail and we teach well how to respond to different situations. Our children are given the opportunities they deserve and they learn from us the best ways to go about things; allowed to learn for themselves. We encourage excellence and we reprimand the wrongdoings. We correct our mistakes in fashioned detail. Not every problem is solved the same way and not one solution is applicable to every situation. So we don't complain, we seek the right solution. We do not worry; we work smart enough to make things better. We are not afraid because we already know what we stand for. We are proud of the much we have achieved and gratefully hopeful for the many that will come. We have reason to celebrate and we do not overdo it. We have places to go and we don't overcrowd them. We have money to spend and we do not waste it. We have time in our hands and we cultivate the most out of it. Most importantly, we have our peace to defend and we do not let anyone interfere with it. A friend once asked me, as a leader, would you rather be loved or feared? Now, I say, loved by my own and feared by the weak.

Know me, Know me

[The Name is Ditiem] Croxt:

Searchers and finders find fun in everything they search for and meet along the way. Some of them have searched the truth and found it. Others have searched for themselves in all honesty and found their purpose. I'm not a belieber but you could ask me; "What do you mean?" Now, I'm sorry for the mystery I've walked in before but of what essence is it to brag about the things I really never had? So to answer your question, it's never too late to say that you're sorry and if a thousand times would pass and still have you as my friend, I owe you gratitude. I'm thankful. For all the experiences I've met along the way. For the beauty in life and the endless opportunities to redefine myself. The fact is, I have never doubted my potential and I never will. If you know where you want to go, then you obviously observe the tides before you set sail. Ships were never built to be docked and the Maker knows the potential hidden in it. The buyer might be blind to some of the faults hidden inside but at least there's a lot more they fancy to spend their treasures. Know me by name and I'll know you by yours. I've stuck to a trade that helps me grow. See, as a man thinketh, so is he. And of course I want to be everything beautiful. Know me and you'll know beauty. Know me and you'll know better. Let the ones who chase the winds lose their way; I know where I'm going because I chase my dreams. Make no fault in knowing me for the wrong reasons; it only gets things complicated. Wikipedia will also know my name so you definitely won't be the only one. I advance. I always take the next step every time it's possible to do so. In all definitions, that is someone worth knowing. Let's make the world a better place and if you ever believed one man could change the world, be glad that at least, now, you know me.

F.B: Forever Beautiful

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My heartstrings are plucked by the things truly most beautiful. So when I say I am in love with happiness, please believe me. I have seen children play and nothing is more beautiful than the joy that radiates even from their simplest actions. I have reason to believe that we are all fashioned to be in love with the things that make us happy. The things that come natural and naturally I was pulled to the joy you set alive inside the crevices of my imaginations. Yet to think that I would be elsewhere would never make sense. I am comfortable in the knowledge that things will get better so I put effort knowing that harvest is on its way. Look into the mirror and believe in the beauty hiding inside you. Let it manifest complete and in no time you will see the vibrations roaring evidently comfortably on the outside. Be fearless and you'll be fearlessly beautiful. Be free in your thoughts and actions and you'll be freely beautiful. Be fierce in your fight for inner peace and you'll become fiercely beautiful. Be friends with yourself first and you'll soon see yourself become friends with your own beauty. Be focused on finding what plucks your own strings and your beauty will be focused on the true you. Try feeling for yourself and the feelings you express will be just as beautiful. Try falling in love with yourself and with the things that align with your heart that even when the time to fall in love with anything else comes you'll fall beautifully. You are the author of your soul and if you let it, you will direct yourself. Don't shy away from leading yourself into the freedom you yearn for because who else would do a better job? I have no motive concealed in reminding you to be the best version of yourself and if you could stop hiding from the truth maybe you could have enough time to learn how to fly. I admit I admire you even from a distance. If you find your true beauty; don't ever lose it. I believe in you. & I also believe in your ability to remain FOREVER BEAUTIFUL.

Compass Directions

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Freedom is for the mind that has its sense of direction. I talked to the jailer man and to me he seemed not to have one but the desire to keep lawbreakers behind bars. It's a good motive until disrespect and contempt towards his victims overflood his mind. I've also had conversations with the captain of a new ship and he intended to keep it no secret like a new song he just discovered on iTunes that filled him with content and new probabilities. So I envy your ability to fall in love with the things that contain immense potential. It is what we all should be; contain immense potential and fall in love with the things that do as well. I am a traveller and each needs his/her compass. Google maps could be my friend but there's barely any access to data in some of the fields I venture into. Some paths are out of the ordinary. & without a clear outline, we overlook some of the steps we should take. Faulty compasses get on my nerves and that's why I'll fix whatever needs to be fixed as I journey forward. I seldom get lost and the admiration I have for you is that of a person who knows their way. Be the bread I serve for breakfast as I embark on a new day and the dinner that keeps me rested at night. I am on a roll and no one could stop me. The wise bus driver knows it's never too late to wait for the old lady trying to catch his bus on a cold winter morning. You are the juice I need to bloom and the birds and bees will be grateful for the sweet nectar we will produce together. If I knew my way to my destination, I'd quicken my steps unafraid. I am no coward and in the face of trials, I triumph. Let's not change targets because we fell short; tomorrow is another day to do better. To push ourselves. To get there. I will not change conversations if you make me uncomfortable. We will talk about why I am uncomfortable. I'm not changing teams because the others look convinced. We know where we are headed and what it takes. If I believe enough to become the butterfly I desire to become, you will hold the testimony for me. We are tried and only to the point we are capable. Never give up. Give some things a thought and you will replenish the dying cells. We have been leading all the way and there's no room to stop now. We will break the walls if we have to and we will rise above the barriers. We will make the most out of it because we are never missing the way. I'll be your compass and you could be mine to. The things that were missing in the picture are about to be granted enough consideration and if it's too far for you to come with me, thank you for the miles we clocked in together. I'll be your compass and you could be mine as well.