Intoxicated Swimming Pools

Croxt:

How swimming pools are painted different shades of either blue or green, gives me a tingly feel, kinda nostalgic, of the vast blue waters of the Indian Ocean. I am enclosed in between four walls of an intoxicated swimming pool. The waters can choke and the temperatures are different. It's the thing with new territories, we are confused at what to expect and we stay far or choose to dive into our problems as soon as they appear head-first. But of course you do not dive into situations you can't swim your way in and the good Lord knows it'll sure as hell be as frightening if someone else pushed you into them. So you need to be ready. You need to keep awake. The most ready are usually the most prepared. You first touch the waters with your hands, almost, with a scoop. A feel of the temperatures. Then you sit at the edge of one of the sides and gently immerse then play with the intoxicated waters with your legs. You reach for more with both hands and pour them on your thighs. That sensation. Then you kind of wash both of your whole arms with the waters and now the temperatures are more friendly with your body. Or your body has chosen to accept and embrace. You pour more over your shoulder and your back freezes for a millisecond. You splash some on your chest and belly and your heart skips a beat. Gasp. You fit into your atmosphere and sometimes you force yourself. The waters might always be cold. Even in the sunny summers. So you can't keep postponing that maybe it will be warmer in the evening. You make a choice, you believe in yourself. They say a journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step and I say, a swim of a thousand miles begins with a single dip in the waters. You get over the cold-fear you have in your mind and dip yourself in. You jump into the water and the territory becomes familiar. You do the things you know well with some confidence and ease. Experience. When you don't know what to do and how to do it well, it gets a bit confusing. So you learn all these things, you teach yourself how to swim. You learn how to stay afloat, how to move in the water (the most streamlined you can get, the better), how to hold your breathe, how to breathe, how to think and most importantly, how not to think. The problem with humans, is some of us overdo it when it comes to thinking. Or, underdo it. We overthink situations sometimes and create problems that never existed, we quarrel with others and shift blame throwing it around. So to get through the intoxicated waters, you have to not think sometimes and flow with the waters as they come. You don't worry about Pizza deliveries, the show you're yet to finish watching, the classes you missed today to swim and all the hue and cry. You just believe and in believing, you move unmoved; you swim undisturbed by nothing. You keep your eyes open in these waters or the uninvited will flow into your ears. You keep your eyes open, head above the water every once in a while and look behind your back occasionally as you move ahead. Awareness. Knowing where you are, why you're there, how to act there, how to be considerate, how to be respectful, even to yourself. You learn how to grow. The good thing is that, every time you keep trying, every time you'll get better. You never go wrong with trying unless you try too hard. That's how people drown. So you try enough to be one with the water, to move yourself in her with ease. You make the tides favour you. Don't you know that if you never ask the answer will always be "No"? Everyone's looking out for themselves and the people they care about notwithstanding your existence. So when you are available in their lives it's for a reason. Make everything better, everything easier. Be there for them in the way you are comfortable with and never harbour evil negative thoughts about a person in your head for whatever reason. You give them power over your thoughts and to be honest, that's your being. Don't be bitter. Also do not take advantage of anyone else. Never. The moment you feel like you almost are step back. Don't take people's kindness for granted. Appreciate and be grateful. It's other people who will teach you how to swim and swim well.Learn the basics, understand the concepts and you're good to go. Never forget where you're swimming from and where you are swimming to; it's in the distance that we know how far away from home we are. Don't ever be afraid to learn. No matter how old you are. If you think swimming would be a good try, and you have the time, fuck what they say and dive into your fantasies.