Never Forget Us

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They can never defeat us and it's painfully true. We hit and we don't miss. No matter how hard we try, we stay standing till the last man drops. The pain of the war is in its sweet victory. Once you win, you never look back and when you do, it is to feel pity for the many who fell. It's sad that so many choose to step into the battlefield unprepared. Never let emotions take the best out of you unless it's for a truth hidden inside you. Which is pointless anyways because the truth will often times fight for itself. Don't let the lies guide your conscious mind because some fear will always be involved. The ward is full of incapacitated enemies fighting a different war now. Fighting for their lives. The thing I never want for anyone is to bear the burden of regret. With defeat, some regret adds to the equation. Why would you ever regret the consequence of something you once badly wanted? The rifle is pointed to your chest and the fear in your eyes should remind you that you showed up to the wrong feast. I admire your valiant cause to defend your life but it should have never even got here in the first place. Nothing chokes like the smoke we choose to inhale by ourselves when we are yet to master its diligence. Also, I understand that practice makes perfect for you but with us in the picture, don't you think it's a bit too far beyond practice? We are beyond play now; we mean business. So, I'll ask you again, which league do you play in? You have camouflaged your heart to suit your evil desires and it's sad for you that I have mastered the art of seeing through things. You are frightened. Not sure where to start. Not sure where to run. So I'll prepare a deathbed for the ones who fall at my feet because I care enough. A thousand of them shall fall and I will remain standing. I have won countless times before without even raising a finger because one thing you should know, I do not even fight my own battles.

I Know What's Important To Me

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Make no mistake, I know what's important to me. I'll get wherever I want to go because I know what it means to me. I bear within me no reason at all to force my values unto other people and it's just special to know you are a favourite. I've seen bridges weighing too many kilos bearing the weight of so many other kilos without cracking under the pressure. I know best not to waste any more time and if your ears could listen, I give really good advice. I almost joined a masquerade a year ago but I no longer need to hide my face to fight for a good cause. I have been down to zero and I welcome hate but never into my heart. I watch over vast fields like a satellite and if it's information you seek, I know a thing or two that could help you find that which you seek for. To be resourceful is amazing yet to take advantage never really made sense. You can have my pillow if you want to dream better dreams and you can share my bed if the cold will keep you awake through the dark nights. I have tossed my money in casinos but it's because I know what importance it would add to me. See, the dust on the street will get into the nose of the homeless man before it gets too attached to your new shoes. Things that go into any system will normally affect the thoughts behind it and I could guess all these motion detectors never sensed me rising to the top. Or they were fine with it. It feels just right that we could be more than what we ever wanted for ourselves. Keep it low-key and let your success ring their doorbells. I've been chasing keys to my castle and it's just now I realized that they will come running into my hands when I am King enough. There's never been a reason good enough to physically fight. So never clench your fists before you've given it enough thought. Don't be scared. Everyone else is and it doesn't really make you any better if you cower. We don't need some of the things others believe we do because let's face it, we are our own heroes. And it's with time that your cup overflows and your value touches those around you. Don't spread hate no matter how much you can not love yourself. I'll step to the plate, keys in my hands and a crown on my head. I have worked to better myself; I have fought to prepare myself. When the spotlight comes flashing, I will be ready to step right into it. Mostly because, I know what's important to me.

Flimsy Fantasies

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3 ladies showed up today in leather jackets and almost the same lipstick. They sat together in a corner and talked about the most random things. It's leather jacket season. So everything is pumpkin-spiced and almost scary enough for the children. Halloween, baby! Yet, my costume never scared any one of them. They asked me to sit with them. And as with all good story-tellers, I kept them all laughing and thinking for close to two hours. We discussed topics from all over the place and I understood first, why they were talking about the most random things when they arrived. Sometimes the fall season also rises you up. It's only the dying leaves that fall to the wind's seductive intrigues. And they go with it, wherever it chooses to take them. The branches obviously remain. To live and to fight again another day, another season. The roots adapt and the soil embraces them firmly. This is why we have family. To protect a love and the meaning of life. So seek a family and share with them the good and help each other through the bad. Be caring enough and never too naive. Be the light in the darkness even for yourself. We are here too many of us but some choose to ignore the tides. So I'll let you breathe, even if softly. The leather pants you're wearing have defined your curves and the edges on your whole system have put me on edge. But before we even get there, here's a candle to light up the way ahead for you. Just try not to breathe out too hard in its direction, thanks.

Something New

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Baby, let's try something new, me & you. Something beautiful. We are full of youth and the sun shines brighter today than it ever has before. You are my passion and I am your inspiration. You were my ambition and now that I've found you, let's try something new. Something different. I don't live for the pleasures and the pleasures alone but I figured we could use some life. We could stay alive. We could go above and beyond. Your treasures shake me as I dive into your mystery and you know I crown it if I happen to like it. I put a ring on it without going round and round in circles. I get straight to the point. Now, if you could close your eyes for a minute, I have a surprise for you. I know you're peeping low-key but it's fine. I can't hide the excitement either. It's not your birthday today but I choose to treat you special every day and in every way I can. We will try something new and differently exciting and never for even a single moment will we take this roller coaster for granted. I love the way you love me and the way I love you I haven't before. You can now open your eyes. You danced all night, girl, you deserve it.

Has Never Been

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I'll take you to places you has never been. Mostly because I really want to get there and I also do not mind some company. So if you're willing, let's throw a dice and see where we land. Let's take some kites and see how far they'd rise. Let's grow some wings and see how high we'd fly. Let's dive into the oceans and see how deep in we'll survive. Let's go to places we has never been. I bet you are yet to land on the moon. Honey streets and well-decorated amusement parks. A dozen of milk stands that could make me do a bunch of flip-flops. Summer salt in sweet garlic prescriptions. Beautiful cake icings on a Christmas tree. Where every thought lingers and in your hair flows through my fingers. The sun rises and we are projected to the world. They know our names. Mostly because we were brave. They change locks of keys to places we called home and we change our vision to something greater. The music is amazing and I could dance in your praises and answer your prayers. One little thing I keep forgetting is that I knew you even before I found myself. And you walked beside me when nobody else could. One little other thing I'll never forget, is that unlike so many others, you are still willing to forgive me and come with me to places we has never been.

Press Record

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The songs of a lifetime might be written and sung in just a single moment. So stay awake whenever it's required of you. I chant a song for this moment right now tastes juicy and it feels like a new day. I stay away from drama and to be honest, the world doesn't really revolve around you. There's a seed I'm sowing and the farmer I am will keep ploughing till dinner is served. Even if I keep getting tired, I will keep going. I will never give up. There's a moment I'm not about to miss. I watch my step and mostly to avoid your toes. There are others with the same voice as I have found so I'm no longer afraid to voice my joys. I no longer intend to stay idle. I do whatever little my hands land on. Bigger ambitions are satisfied by small continuous efforts. I have a family I love and cherish and now I wish to help keep them growing. We've struggled enough times. The cold almost ripped our ears off and I've seen blood oozing out of places I'd rather have never been. So join the anthem and sing with me. Let's chant a song of freedom and the ability to achieve whatever we set our minds to. We will never give up; we will keep on going. If it's money, we will make it. If it's peace, we will continue to create it. The seeds that we are sowing are a promise to this land and to our children's children that we will keep going, no matter how hard it ever gets.

Price Tag

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My beautiful girlfriend told me, "Everything will work out" and I believe her. I'm not easily the type to get too excited without a good reason. But yeah, life's hit me hard a couple of times before. And, no.. I'm not even complaining. Shoe strings don't want to get too attached to the shoe but at least they hold your foot in place. Unlike shoe strings, sugar naturally dissolves in water and what a sweet sight. Sigh. You try and try because you believe that the 101st time you do, things will work out. It gets really hard sometimes to figure things out and if you're not helping the economy, they somehow find a way to kick you out. Everyone wants the joys of your success but would rather watch you carry the burdens from the sidelines. I understand. We are all fighting fights we do not even understand ourselves. The bigger the test, the more appealing your GPA looks if you get to ace it. So I do my best and learn from my shadows. Those things you can't tell are the best and worst things to play around. So I read the price tag first before I reach for my wallet. Are you worth it?

A Fedora for your Troubles

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I flip my hat off and marry it to my chest as I bow down before thine presence. A fedora for your troubles. I have seen it, the struggle. Your smile is everything, and in all you went through you went through it untroubled. You kept your peace because you fought to protect it. Vendetta troubles. See, my friends and I like to do random things. You know, like be ourselves in the midst of so much rubble. Trust me, we've had our better days and we know the best are yet to come. Yet, we've also gone through some shit we were never sure we'd ever get out of. Surely if you look at it from my angle, I am deeply grateful for the good and bad. The good taught me I can always win again and the bad was enough good practice. Even some of these vaccines are administered in the form of their own disease. You learn sometimes the hard way. If it doesn't harden your heart, it will open your mind. Everything is nice and I'll say it twice; everything is nice. Pardon my mystery but we both know I belong in the midst of those things you will cherish. You're a bright flower blooming in the midst of the ocean, fighting the storms and always winning. You stretch in too deep and your roots go even further. Your branches embrace the clouds and pierce the skies as your leaves embrace that only which is divine. You are a winner and winners know what it means to lose. You win some, you lose some. The ones you win don't let them far too in; the ones you lose, don't let them distract you. You've been doing a completely perfect job already. Not giving up. You are bigger than your problems and tonight, please allow me to bow this one down for ya: a fedora for ya trouble!

The Baker's Equation

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Some prayers we pray rise up and find their place among the clouds. They are answered and sent back into our bosom in the form of rain. And every cloud has its silver lining. If you work hard enough, golden. I have walked in the shadows and deserved all these medals I won. That's why when I met this baker, I quickly baked all the questions I would ask him? Tough but necessary questions. Unlike many others, he understood some really brilliant concepts. His bakery was his kingdom and everything he ruled reigned. I became an admirer. Because sometimes, people really do not present the type of people you thought they were. That's why I've taught myself to never judge but to walk in the truest of principles that guide my heart. I celebrate life and just like Mr. Baker, he seemed to enjoy his, pretty well as well. "Ah, I have been expecting you!" He preferred to call me Syntax and he loved what I said. He broke down his royal equations and I calculated to prove enough that he was on top of his toes. Great conversations fade in a blissful way. As if they'd prefer to be forgotten. Then when you remember them, it's a beautiful memory. I guess when they said "Practice makes perfect," they actually meant it. To be great, you need to be prepared. It has never come easy.

Don't Dilute my Work

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Just like the CN Tower, my work stands tall; and just like my BOSE speakers, it also speaks loudly for itself. Y'all heard that Jesus turned water into wine at some wedding in Cana and I wouldn't say it's something I can. Give me words and I'll make them beautiful; give me time and I'll make you proud. To be honest, show me something beautiful and I will praise it. Show me something ugly and I'll show you why it really is not and how much better it could get. See, when it rains the dust settles after a while and all the dirt is washed away. Wash away my sins and judge not my imperfections, if I happen to have any. Read through the lines of my work and understand where am coming from. It might look good, it might feel good but don't make it look you. I surely do not want to look like you. So if it is to esteem something you admire, you must rise your way to its position or just admire it from below. Drag me through the mud and I'll remind you that I've secured my place in a high place. Don't throw in the towel, yet. You can do it as well. If your intentions are true; if your intentions are pure; if your intentions certainly make sense. We are all different but equally the same. The things that make us different are the same things that build our similarities. So never try too hard unless you're putting in real work and gaining for yourself real value. Never lose hope and never really despair. My work is a little bit like your favourite liquor. And I very much hope you'll drink it with no chasers. Thanks.

EPAR - Never Beyond Repair

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There are things we would never want to happen to us or to the people we care about. So, some papercuts will hurt so bad and an earthquake could bring your whole house tumbling down. I shiver at some thoughts and I feel the pain even when I think about it. I'd run away and hide but these thorny fences would never let me and the walls are so cold I could never force my way beyond them. The so called door wouldn't even open and as I have learnt to open my eyes more, I've seen destitution, destruction and pain; blood outpouring from a broken drinking glass. Alcohol will play with how your mind dances and some drugs will make you feel invincible. We are all tried and tested to our bones when we stumble and it's only the strong-willed who win the fight against evil desires. Sometimes, we breed it even before we intoxicate our thinking. I have seen evil spread through the world and some unfathomable things accepted by many who get roused easily. I could never blame them but to ever raise your finger and take advantage of someone weaker, it could only mean one thing. Call me on my cellphone and I'll tell you real stories of women hurt beyond what they asked for. Call me on my cellphone and we will sympathize with the men who have been stripped off the courage to refer to themselves as men again. Call me on my cellphone and let's think of the solutions we actually really need. I've seen scarred faces, felt scared souls and wept for broken hearts. Nobody ever deserves the pain. Any pain. Nobody ever deserves to be made a nobody. Because the fights we fight the most are in our minds and to disturb the peace in another's is strangely super weak. Let's be aware of the effect of the ripples we effect. Let's affect others positively; no matter how badly negatively affected we have been. I don't know about you but I believe things will always get better if we desire that enough. The worst might have happened to you, my dear, but you never have to shed a tear again. Your past might have been torn to pieces but you'll always find the pieces and fix the important ones back into the puzzle of your future. We are all different and "animals" will become of some who allow their minds to be twisted. Let's walk straight, with full respect to everyone else. Find your respect for others and you'll find respect for yourself. & before I forget, you are never really broken beyond repair.