Santa Says

[Happy Holidays] Croxt:

Due to unforeseen circumstances, changes in weather, thanks global warming and price inflation; Mr. Santa couldn't show up on time this year at every door. Either way he managed to get through and sent me an email so y'all know what Santa says and what he's been up to. This is what the email says:

"I know some of you did not get a gift at all or on time, or you got something less than what you expected. I don't blame the Starbucks red cups this season or the way some of you guys don't even have a chimney. I gained some weight, I admit. & no it's not that I sneak into the fridges of the houses that have bigger ones enough to fit me. I need a new sleigh, man. The one I have been using doesn't fly high enough anymore and population increase is another thing. I've been talking with my guys at Amazon and eBay. They're doing a better job so far, all through the year and it's about time I joined the technology world while at it. So you know this is the first but definitely not last email I will be sending. I like listening to the wishes of the little children because they actually believe in the ability to make things happen. I wish they would be shown even better how to. You'll see me chilling at the mall some times and it's usually me waiting for the refills. You gotta give back occasionally. Ask me what's my best side and you'll find out it's not that greener on the other either. We all have things we need and those that need to be taken care of and right now it's like I'm hungry again. Prepare the tables and ready your stomachs. The neighbourhood smells alive and R.I.P to all the chicken that had to go out this season. The Christmas lights are flashing and all these houses are well-decorated. If I was to be in a fairytale then I was in a legendary one. Maybe a couple of more hundred times because I'd never have needed a second chance if the first one was elaborate. I know what I need to do and I'm sorry snow is yet to fall where you expected. Even on a white Christmas, I don't discriminate. Be good children and you'll find the gifts you wished for. It's unfair that I'm busiest when you are on vacation but also fair that every other time I'm just chilling counting smiles and preparing gifts for the next one. The lessons I've learned have helped me help kids to be the things they wish for. Teach them to wish and work for the best. It makes my work easy. This is what I want to do. Have you ever started preparing your Reindeer and then it started to rain dear? That sucks. But what more can I say? I'll just apologize one more time and wish you all a very Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year, 2016." 

PARTYcipation

[Straight in the Mood] Croxt:

When you are at a party; be a part of the party. Be in it or at home. Be part of the fun and part of the solution. Look, I love how you are the life of the party. It's fine by me how you always manage to steal the show. The best thing about tonight is that the DJ knows we have arrived. Another one! He knows the types of tunes we turn up to and I know he loves how we dance. How we give life to the party. The speakers are booming and it's going down. Somebody call 911 and tell them the roof is on fire. Call security and tell them we're about to have a situation. #Lituation. The ladies have their makeup well-done and they all look ready for a beautiful night. The men are full of energy and the sound of their laughter is music to your ears. Friends are reconnecting and everyone is making their peace. It's crazy. The atmosphere is turnt and it's about to be one blast of a night. The drinks are in circulation and every one is in a good mood. The bouncers outside are welcoming and the bartenders inside are charming. You can literally feel the fun. My squad turns up like individual. Whatever that means, no one else compares. And since you clearly can't beat them, feel free to join us. I love the way you dance and the way you move. It's like you're moving with me. It gets too hot some times in here and a bit sweaty. The people keep going and the DJ never tires. We know we deserve a good time and that's what we are having. No disrespect and zero discrimination. We came to light the night up and that's why I brought my lighter. To light. The night. I see the higher we go the cooler we become. You are busting some dangerous moves and it looks like I may want to join. The way we move around here is beautifully mind-blowing. Dance like you have a great point to prove. It's one of those nights where you could care but care less. You could be whoever you want with zero exaggeration. The limelight is on you and you better show us what you know. I've seen people become believers after doubting your potential. Move with the beat and let the vibes bless you. Who wants a dance? Who fancies to dance with me? It's a party and I'm making sure everybody is having a great time. If you want something let me know and in case you need anything hit me up. It's crazy we are back at this, here together again, after all we have been through. Let's make this a night to remember.

Throwbacks and Starbucks

[Some of the Stories I Tell] Croxt:

Allow me to take it back, way back to the days a sweet-cold cappuccino would take me out a while. See, it's not that I hate my sleep but some things need to be taken care of while you're still awake. Dark nights would turn into bright lights and the sunlight would usher me to sleep. With a night-shifter's attitude, you can get anything done no matter what time of day. I'll keep it subliminal and slide in your DM's. Text messages suck anyway. I'd rather you call me on my cellphone just because I like it when the hotline blings. But remember, this is way back before we had the SMS's and people would smack down the receiver if they didn't like what you were saying.. Or wanted to make clear what they were telling you. I'm not that guy with a temper to shout you down over a phone call. I know that we see things different at times. I'm calm and I never let my storms overturn other people's boats. If I was the iceberg in the Titanic movie, I would have moved out of the way. I let people be and mind my own coffee. Kids learn from our actions and I'm glad there are some things I've unlearned. I know now what's really important. If I'll disturb your peace then I'm sorry. Because I know what that means. It's important as you sit on the coffee table to stick to your own. People who want others involved in their lives with no benefit to them need to learn how not to be selfish. Yet, you can't really be of use to everyone you get a chance to meet. So, don't make it difficult for the ones you do. A trip down memory lane will take me to Kenya, unfortunately, with no Starbucks coffee shop in sight. We would make our kahawa on a firewood jiko and the soot on the sufuria would alert you on how much time you would need. The smoke from the wood gave the coffee a different taste and I wouldn't say it was the best but I miss it. The smoke would make your eyes tear, save from the fresh onions in the shamba outside. So I know how to make a couple of things from scratch. & in case you forgot, you scratch where it it itches the most. I've had soot find its way into my eyes as I prepared my morning breakfast. I still didn't close my eyes to the pain we went through. I didn't make it normal. Food left over from the previous night was a blessing in the morning so at dinner, we always remembered to save some for tomorrow. It's the thing with memories; you remember even how the cold ugali tasted. I like my coffee with a lot of milk, I won't mention how much sugar. Gratefully, enough neighbours bred enough cattle to supply the whole kijiji. So I'm sure if the stars would light up tomorrow night and the one after, the bucks I had then will not compare. I am in the mood for growth as always and if it's by this wooden coffee table that I will carve my story, then let the coffee sip inside it and make my writing legible.

Prefect wa Mtaa

[My kind of Sheng'] Kroxti:

Kuna machwom kazaa mi natambua hii mtaa na bila kukazia, vitu zingine ka hizi hukam in handy kukinuka. Nimejaribu one-two, one-two na natambua zile vitu zinawork na zile zinahitaji effort ziada zaidi. Kumaanisha naweza okolea base inahitaji msaada ama niencourage newcomer anazipitia. Kuobserve ishakuwa hobby na kulearn ikakuwa desturi. Kuna vitu enough simind na kuna zile ntapigia debe. Tried and tested. Tried and tasted. Kuna graffiti moja mbili nimeorchestrate na kuwin ni kitu siwezi mind kudemonstrate. Learn na me.. Grow na me. Mchezo mchezo hivi tutakuwa tumefika place wengine hawawezi. Jua na mwezi; we look up to. Na kila mwezi full, I look up, juu. Ju iko vile kukiumana lazma ukuwe na meno ngumu zaidi; ulimi tamu zaidi na attitude ya juu zaidi. Ambia wale wasee walilose hope na wewe hii ndo time ya kujiredeem. Uskonde msupa, uskonde kaka brazza. Hatukufundishwa poa kuwin on our own.. Ndo reason tunacopy sana. Kama unaremember fiti methali kazaa, utakumbuka ukiiga ndovu kunya utapasuka huko down. Tbh, hiyo ni tragic. Tujipende na tujue what's enough bila kujilimit. Ama ilikuwa ujue aje we ni ndovu ukiishi ka chura? I hope sikupandisii but ka unaniwahi, unaniget, tukate hii ticket tusafiri pamoja. Njia si fupi lakini tukifika utajua.

From the Queen's Diary

[What Does She Say?] Croxt:

I tore a page from the Queen's diary & this is what it said:

"This little golden maiden sits on my lap in the midst of a cloud of smoke she chose to inhale and now, wishing to be me. I am her and she is yet to be me. Her demeanour is calm and collected and sometimes I wish the pieces she's been broken into I'd collect. She'll piece it all together in due time but at the moment I'd rather she'd not. For now. Although what she seems is comfortable. A thing I admire. She sits with her friends and I see them come alive. Yet you'd never fight the feeling of great companionship. I shudder because every time they look at her, they almost see my face beneath hers. It's scary. I know am not yet ready to come out, so I hide. Beneath the surface, I've cracked a thousand times under this shell. It is her courage that drives me insane. I've been hidden for too long but her search for answers keeps bringing her closer to the truth. I'd say she's in the process of finding herself, me, which I'm not helping her with. You keep running until it's impossible to escape the claws. Because I know my worth. And I think she almost deserves it. See, she cries all things I would and laughs at the jokes that would break my ribs. She's trying. She embodies her skin, her colour, her struggles and her flaws. She's chosen to embrace herself fully and it's tempting to lean in and tell her she'll find me and that everything is going to be okay. She knows best not to believe in the lies and works on herself. Every day. To be better, to grow, to become. She is asking herself too many questions right now. Does she like this feeling of emptiness and cloudy nights? Has she fought her mind enough to believe that good lies within her? Use your imagination little one, and pretend that aeroplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars. She could really use a wish right now. To be one with me; who I am. I am her but she is yet to be me. Things take time and uncertainty wounds the heart. Good girls love good things. And she's fallen in love. The environment we find ourselves in should grow us. She should know. But I won't tell. I guess you could say that we are one and the same. They have praises for her I'd echo & in every tune she'd dance to, I'd feel her steps. In due time, we will be one. See, I am her highness. Her superior. She looks up to me for guidance, deep within her self to the pure pits of self where I thrive to rule and judge her actions. And with every move she makes, she leaves me impressed. I'd run fast a thousand miles but sure enough, she'll catch up around the corner. Every good turn deserves another."

I'm on your Team - FootbalLove

[The Name is Ditiem] Croxt:

Level the playing field and allow me to see from post to post. The ball is in our court and the only dream we have is to score the most goals and in the most beautiful fashion. Targets are reached and limits exceeded by the ones who know what they are fighting for. I am versatile in every sense and I see you might be intimidated by the chances I create. I am not looking out for myself; I stopped playing selfish when I realized we could all be the stars we ever dreamt of becoming. I will take the lead if you are a bit shy or not fully convinced yet. I understand fully why I am in this. I have seen the bigger picture and the most we could achieve. I am not trying to steal the show or claim all the light but if by it shining on me would bring you on, then I've let it. The changing rooms might be messy but the world needn't see it. They clearly should not see my anticipation or the anxiety you're dressed in. They see the game we play and cheer the goals we score. Let's not fall behind the lines to please ourselves or fight amongst ourselves to settle old scores. Those ones don't matter on the field. This is the chance to put behind our differences and claim our pot of gold. Imagination is our name and possibility our drive. We only take the chances we create so allow me to be as creative as I can. Don't try to lower my energy and don't dress me less to look better yourself. Don't compromise with what we have but challenge me for more. I could give us the world if you're not too stubborn to keep taking us back to where we started. I could grant you the wishes you always had before you met a real winner; somebody with pure intention and clear motive. A caterpillar like you deserves to fly. To butterfly. To become something I'm convinced you could. It's not going to be easy but at least we have the compass directions. Google Maps is our friend and the number of goals we score will put us on the map. Don't despair and play your part. We will make each moment count and if you ever lose faith in me; never lose the one you have in yourself. We are on the same team and it's time you stopped worrying too much about me. Let's get these goals.

You know what to Expect

[Of Paths not Taken] Croxt:

All caterpillars have the divine capability to one day become butterflies. It's chances mostly and hope and carefulness and the ability to be patient that sets it free. We are given fires we do not know how to play with and if we miss a step we walk right into them and its burning. A skillful soldier knows when to step into the battlefield and you don't call for war when you're not ready. To be skillful, practice is needed. You can never be realistic if you're not real to yourself. You dream too big and it's okay. You dress the part and it's okay. They don't believe in you yet and it's still okay. You ask yourself too many questions and it's also okay. At least you know what to expect. Nobody ever told you it was going to be easy and you've grown enough to see that it's not. Hardened hearts are like onions to me. They make me cry sometimes. Why would you break the trust you had in yourself because someone broke the one you had in them? The hardest you fight on, the brightest your butterfly wings become. It's a given but you have to earn it. Stay strong and stand your ground. Move your will beyond the horizon. To be out of reach, each step counts. You get what you expect and if it's disappointment you're afraid of, don't be disappointed in yourself. Learn to fear nothing. Learn to embrace change. Learn to grow no matter the environment. Learn to be the best version of only yourself. Yet when you dive into your possible possibilities, don't dive in too deep to lose yourself. Love yourself enough to know what's enough; without setting for less. The wings are already inside you. You just have to learn how to work them. And once the sun is out, the leaves will be expecting you to land on them. You already know what to expect.

Turtles in Turtleneck Sweaters

[Of Paths not Taken] Croxt:

Always dress the part, unless you're different on the inside and way above other's expectations. I can imagine a giraffe with a longer turtleneck or a kangaroo in tights; jumping her way to the dinner table. We carry only what belongs to us as we let the earth swallow its dust. At High Park station, I met a friend. A friend in need; a friend indeed. A friend in deed; a friend with solutions. I realize now that not everyone who's there to help will help but at least you have some people you can count on. I survive on a daily dose of prayer and changes in routine have given me better experiences. If there are things I know for certain; let bettering myself be one of them. I know where to step ever since I knew where to start. I have the ignition dates printed in my heart and I have fallen in love with this journey to the best version of myself. I will give you nothing less. You get what you give; if it's something to go by, I get the best version of experiences wherever I go. People are free to be themselves around me and to be honest, I've had really meaningful conversations with people from many walks. Yet I do not credit it to any part of my doing but to the ability that I am who I give. & I'll give the best. I'll try my best. I'll stay the best. No comparison intended, I only compete with myself. I know where I want to go and I clearly know what's important to me. I should mention that we are who we want to be if we present ourselves to the right situations that define us. If you ever have a problem understanding what I say or what it means; ask me a question. That's how we learn. Yet, it's never that serious if you believe that you're on the right path. I'll say a million things and still make sure they are all spoken when they were needed. I don't force my thoughts, I let them take shape. I let them exist and I learn from them as well. I am on a mission to keep on going and to keep on going and when the time is right, my shell will give way to the wings underneath. Turtles could be something else too.

FixzBanger: The Antidote

[Of Paths not Taken] Croxt:

The silver moon could hold on longer if the golden sun did not show up on time. It's called taking responsibility. If people depended more on it, maybe it could shine even brighter. The street lights have progressively taken over its job and it could only happen because it wasn't really enough and people needed to feel a lot more safer. So the subway tracks sometimes get you home faster if you live right next to the station than your car could. But sometimes it's easier staying alone. Royals and merchants know nothing about missing the train and the bus having to stop at every single stop. It drains you when you have to walk because you don't have enough coins for the token you need to get home while it frustrates you if you forgot to fill up the car the night before and now you're empty. Empty pockets do not give a smile to the beggars on the street and neither does closed car windows. To find you must search and to search you must know where to start. So you don't burn bridges unless you can swim even in the cold. Or if you have enough money to replace the other one. They say you're hit hard where you fear the most that's why I encourage people to never let fear get the best of them. Jogging to work is an option too if you want to lose weight but sometimes you gain because you have nothing to lose. Schools are where we go to to learn but the way it's set up; you run out of funds, and time, and sometimes confidence. Your family is supposed to be there for you but you make it hard for them or they make it hard for you so what are both of you saying? I hear Thanksgiving dinners are full of ungrateful conversations. Friends usually are there for each other but when money is not involved. True friends understand. Yet people are different and some of this is made up. Pineapples are good and sweet and juicy but not for your teeth. I have an antidote and it's quite simple. You make your life count each moment and you better love yourself now you could be running out of ideas.

Calming Nation

[The Name is Ditiem] Croxt:

Calming Nation: where your fears go to die. I am the President of a country that knows rest. Peace is the air we breathe and happiness is the music we dance to. We have our own problems but we deal with them in time. We rise when we fall; we ride through every stop. Our constitution allows everyone to grow; knowing for a fact that that is what we are here for. Expression is allowed and we have learnt to embrace our differences. The fear-mongers are shunned and their power is stripped off. The afraid are taught how to overcome and we don't force things, we let them become us. We are winners of battles we do not have to fight and when the enemy is upon us; they've chosen their predicament. We pick the battles that are necessary and evil will never find its way into our hearts. We defend the weak and protect the vulnerable. We speak up against unfair and unjust treatment and we remedy the things that ail us. Our anthem symbolizes us and our flag is painted in our hearts. We have found harmony and peace and that is necessary. We have loved the atmosphere we exist in knowing well that we would be comfortable even if we had to live elsewhere. We have joined forces with our friends and we treat our enemies with respect. We help wherever we can and build everything that is beautiful. You see, we are compassion and compassion is us. Bullies are not given an ear and to step on our toes is to injure your feet. We are responsible and respectable while at it. We do not compete for favours; we do what is right. We show up on time and rightly so. We learn where we fail and we teach well how to respond to different situations. Our children are given the opportunities they deserve and they learn from us the best ways to go about things; allowed to learn for themselves. We encourage excellence and we reprimand the wrongdoings. We correct our mistakes in fashioned detail. Not every problem is solved the same way and not one solution is applicable to every situation. So we don't complain, we seek the right solution. We do not worry; we work smart enough to make things better. We are not afraid because we already know what we stand for. We are proud of the much we have achieved and gratefully hopeful for the many that will come. We have reason to celebrate and we do not overdo it. We have places to go and we don't overcrowd them. We have money to spend and we do not waste it. We have time in our hands and we cultivate the most out of it. Most importantly, we have our peace to defend and we do not let anyone interfere with it. A friend once asked me, as a leader, would you rather be loved or feared? Now, I say, loved by my own and feared by the weak.

Know me, Know me

[The Name is Ditiem] Croxt:

Searchers and finders find fun in everything they search for and meet along the way. Some of them have searched the truth and found it. Others have searched for themselves in all honesty and found their purpose. I'm not a belieber but you could ask me; "What do you mean?" Now, I'm sorry for the mystery I've walked in before but of what essence is it to brag about the things I really never had? So to answer your question, it's never too late to say that you're sorry and if a thousand times would pass and still have you as my friend, I owe you gratitude. I'm thankful. For all the experiences I've met along the way. For the beauty in life and the endless opportunities to redefine myself. The fact is, I have never doubted my potential and I never will. If you know where you want to go, then you obviously observe the tides before you set sail. Ships were never built to be docked and the Maker knows the potential hidden in it. The buyer might be blind to some of the faults hidden inside but at least there's a lot more they fancy to spend their treasures. Know me by name and I'll know you by yours. I've stuck to a trade that helps me grow. See, as a man thinketh, so is he. And of course I want to be everything beautiful. Know me and you'll know beauty. Know me and you'll know better. Let the ones who chase the winds lose their way; I know where I'm going because I chase my dreams. Make no fault in knowing me for the wrong reasons; it only gets things complicated. Wikipedia will also know my name so you definitely won't be the only one. I advance. I always take the next step every time it's possible to do so. In all definitions, that is someone worth knowing. Let's make the world a better place and if you ever believed one man could change the world, be glad that at least, now, you know me.

F.B: Forever Beautiful

[Of Paths not Taken] Croxt:

My heartstrings are plucked by the things truly most beautiful. So when I say I am in love with happiness, please believe me. I have seen children play and nothing is more beautiful than the joy that radiates even from their simplest actions. I have reason to believe that we are all fashioned to be in love with the things that make us happy. The things that come natural and naturally I was pulled to the joy you set alive inside the crevices of my imaginations. Yet to think that I would be elsewhere would never make sense. I am comfortable in the knowledge that things will get better so I put effort knowing that harvest is on its way. Look into the mirror and believe in the beauty hiding inside you. Let it manifest complete and in no time you will see the vibrations roaring evidently comfortably on the outside. Be fearless and you'll be fearlessly beautiful. Be free in your thoughts and actions and you'll be freely beautiful. Be fierce in your fight for inner peace and you'll become fiercely beautiful. Be friends with yourself first and you'll soon see yourself become friends with your own beauty. Be focused on finding what plucks your own strings and your beauty will be focused on the true you. Try feeling for yourself and the feelings you express will be just as beautiful. Try falling in love with yourself and with the things that align with your heart that even when the time to fall in love with anything else comes you'll fall beautifully. You are the author of your soul and if you let it, you will direct yourself. Don't shy away from leading yourself into the freedom you yearn for because who else would do a better job? I have no motive concealed in reminding you to be the best version of yourself and if you could stop hiding from the truth maybe you could have enough time to learn how to fly. I admit I admire you even from a distance. If you find your true beauty; don't ever lose it. I believe in you. & I also believe in your ability to remain FOREVER BEAUTIFUL.

Compass Directions

[Of Paths not Taken] Croxt:

Freedom is for the mind that has its sense of direction. I talked to the jailer man and to me he seemed not to have one but the desire to keep lawbreakers behind bars. It's a good motive until disrespect and contempt towards his victims overflood his mind. I've also had conversations with the captain of a new ship and he intended to keep it no secret like a new song he just discovered on iTunes that filled him with content and new probabilities. So I envy your ability to fall in love with the things that contain immense potential. It is what we all should be; contain immense potential and fall in love with the things that do as well. I am a traveller and each needs his/her compass. Google maps could be my friend but there's barely any access to data in some of the fields I venture into. Some paths are out of the ordinary. & without a clear outline, we overlook some of the steps we should take. Faulty compasses get on my nerves and that's why I'll fix whatever needs to be fixed as I journey forward. I seldom get lost and the admiration I have for you is that of a person who knows their way. Be the bread I serve for breakfast as I embark on a new day and the dinner that keeps me rested at night. I am on a roll and no one could stop me. The wise bus driver knows it's never too late to wait for the old lady trying to catch his bus on a cold winter morning. You are the juice I need to bloom and the birds and bees will be grateful for the sweet nectar we will produce together. If I knew my way to my destination, I'd quicken my steps unafraid. I am no coward and in the face of trials, I triumph. Let's not change targets because we fell short; tomorrow is another day to do better. To push ourselves. To get there. I will not change conversations if you make me uncomfortable. We will talk about why I am uncomfortable. I'm not changing teams because the others look convinced. We know where we are headed and what it takes. If I believe enough to become the butterfly I desire to become, you will hold the testimony for me. We are tried and only to the point we are capable. Never give up. Give some things a thought and you will replenish the dying cells. We have been leading all the way and there's no room to stop now. We will break the walls if we have to and we will rise above the barriers. We will make the most out of it because we are never missing the way. I'll be your compass and you could be mine to. The things that were missing in the picture are about to be granted enough consideration and if it's too far for you to come with me, thank you for the miles we clocked in together. I'll be your compass and you could be mine as well.

Etch a Sketch

[Of Paths not Taken] Croxt:

Make no mistake to the things that matter. Many times I've found my drafts to be way better than the complete art I sought to paint. So somethings are completely perfect incomplete yet unlike humans, could stand on their own. I am a huge fan of progress and subsequent perfection. I'll go to great lengths to ensure I'll keep on going. I'll play with the waters and flow with the waves. I'll serve my quota and pay a quarter more to everything I've damaged. Because I know well we are fragile beings; our emotions and peace of mind as fragile as ever. That's why I protect mine. I keep them safe and close. I don't let people play with them carelessly. Because they do that. I see things coming. If they are not for me, I get out of their way. It's times like this I'd sit down to write a poem I believe in. Yet, when I look I see people sketching things they have no clue about. Dig deeper, beyond the surface; reach higher, beyond the sky that is your limit. We are boundless. I took off as a rocket and found my place among the stars. When you see one blink in the distance, it might be me saying hello and I believe in you. A thousand men could knock on my doors of wisdom and could never break in. Yet even a million. If you come in peace, I will relate. If you come with skewed intentions, you will not hear from me. I write and people like how I play with words. That was then, now I use them. I use them to say things from my heart. If they happen to sound good in your ears, you're welcome! A bucket of fresh vegetables and a pile of dirty laundry on the carpet, like who did this? If we are bound to our dreams and bonded to our past mistakes we never learnt from then am moving pretty fast towards my destination. An apple a day keeps your hunger at bay and if in any way you saw what I did there, people are hungry. Etch a sketch for the people who need you and if it ever feels yet to be perfect, keep on going.

Champion Boy

[Of Paths not Taken] Croxt:

I felt the troubles of a problem and I knew then I couldn't take it with me. Some loads have to be offloaded to keep the reels rolling. I'm making a movie that has no room for edits. So I fuck up some commas but keep recording. I'm up to something and it's beautiful. The temple halls have been brought up and its sacred where I stand. No one can touch me. I have sought answers because I didn't know for sure for sure the answer to the question of life. I'm still contemplating how to decorate my plate. I've been that person. I like to eat my food presentable unless my appetite suggests something different. I'm not embarrassed really by the things I say because I put in a thought before I utter them. I make sure my kingdom is well fed and we don't throw food out to the pigs. We feed everyone well and the ungrateful know they do not have a place here. I'm headed to the top because this is the championship. I handle my problems sooner than they arrive and that's how I intend to keep things. Throw some trust to the winds and they won't blow your roof off. I don't dodge bullets because they know they can't find me. I'm sheltered by mercies I am truly grateful for. So play the piano for me any time of day and I'll dance to it in any way I see fit. The swimming pools have washed away my fat and I'm too fast for some fast foods, they keep away. I am a skywalker and I followed the stars to this point. The projector knows what I'm talking about. It's been all out with your story in full screen. HD. If you have enough time we could chill some time and watch Netflix. Poetry and chill? I'm talking in codes because then you might understand me a while after this. Which is fine. Some things take time and I also hope you'll take yours carefully. I have dreams with me, on my left and my right side. If nothing goes right, then they left you right where you slipped. 

Next Bus

[Of Paths not Taken] Croxt:

I've always wanted to be the type of person that other people see and see hope. If I could be your transportation to the destination you intend to go, I would choose to double up as the next bus. The next bus that comes soon enough after the one you just missed. I've made the lights right before they changed and I've missed a few trains and buses when I needed them the most. So I've ended up taking a taxicab to avoid disappointing the event I hoped to reach in time. Fuck the last bus. Yet you could say I should have planned my travel earlier; plan to get their before time but sometimes I don't even know what happens. So I'll be hungry enough for the next meal and I won't miss my calling. They say opportunity knocks once in a lifetime but I say it's never too late. & a lifetime is a long time if you decide to enjoy every moment you find yourself in to its fill. Don't get too mad at the bus you missed because the next is on its way. I've seen people complaining for things that are not that serious. Why would you throw a stone to the bus that just left you? Wait on me and I'll be there before you break any glasses and cut yourself. It's actually never that serious. See you in less than a minute!

True Colours

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I've studied the rainbows for far enough time and now I can clearly distinguish between colours. I know what is true and I know what is false. Time has taught me a lot of things. And I embrace my lessons with the seriousness they deserve. I've lost interest in pleasing everyone but still respect and understand everything and everyone in the positions they stand. I am making ends meet; now that I know where to seek whatever it is that I need. Take time and reflect. Have you seen something before devoid of purpose? Speaking of colours, my favourite colour is blue. For many reasons, I'd press. Behind closed doors, you barely get to see the extent of the skies above or the beauty hidden in the oceans. The consequences for the colours we adorn have been proven before. I don't have to flash it in your face for you to see I'm up to something. You do good for some people and they forget until it's too late. You could pretend for so long but before my eyes, it's really pointless. I see your true colours. Different people are selfish for different reasons. We all do different things with different perspectives. But I've learnt to rise above petty and I am nowhere near it. Try my patience and I'll show you I'm strong. Black don't crack under pressure and I'm sweet like sugar and hot as pepper. I see things for the way they are and I do not use people. Not for selfish gains, no. I give them what they need. If your patience is lacking then your colour is fading. Let's be upbeat to the things that really matter... the things that add colour to our lives. & I pray that you are granted the strength that you need. Peace.

Give me an Audience

Knock, knock...

Who's there?

That wasn't one of those jokes.. lol Just mic-check;

One-two, one-two

That's the 6 if you did the math

A 3 if you hate repetitions.

I won't waste your time, so give me an audience. The mic is in my hands and shots will be fired. One-two, one-two.

The jobless will be hired. 

As the cars need their tires I hope your ears will never get tired.

Give me an audience and I'll speak of the things we desired. A fire in a forest that dried up in the fall.. A tragic little story of me as a boy, inside the mall, when mummy couldn't buy me a toy. That's why I speak with joy of the things unfurnished and warm empty houses. Warm grumbling empty stomachs. Warm but empty decisions yet when I stand and look up I stepped forward. Give me an audience for the things I cherish and those I despise. I'm one of a kind and I'm one known to be kind. I don't read people's minds but understand what they are up to. It's upsetting when the setting is ridiculous and my jokes are not that funny. But honey, you can have my milk and if Swahili, asali. I'll say asanti as I mean it, a thank you every minute. I know you're a stone's throw away but I also know you live in glass houses; love in mud houses; as I spit my mad verses. So I'll do this again; 

Knock knock;

Who's there?

Just me trynna get an audience.

That's all.

The Narrative of War

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I've come to believe that war is the medicine for those desperately afraid to lose. I am no expert but I know a coward when I see one. I see through the ones who put on a facade. A fake face and a cake laced with poison. I see through their desperations. For starters, the world has been upside-down if you've been yet too busy to notice. The things that are pushed into your face are disgusting the most. And just because they are acceptable, it doesn't mean you should consume them. No. I don't want the world to go back to how it was before slavery and colonization. No, I do not wish for people to continue dying blindly without knowing where they will end up in. Take off your cowardice and put on some real clothes. Let people know you for what you really are. Time is frozen and I pray the frostbites on your ears would let my words sip in. At least, some of them. Fear is the problem. Anything evil plays to the tune of fear and I sympathize when I see someone dance to it. It's a predicament. What are the things you are afraid of? Either good for you, bad for you, good for others or bad for others? What are you really afraid of? It might be one thing or a thousand different things. Small or huge, fear is real. Fear-mongers, I've found, stand to gain a lot. Why? We give power to the things we fear. & it's never-ending. We go to churches and spin to never-ending circles. We go to Mosques and we are bombed because of the Deity we believe in. We shift blame because no one wants to take responsibility. We give people names and sugarcoat situations to please our tastes. So what do we stand to lose? The fame or the name? The win for the game? See, we get greedy sometimes and we want more for ourselves. It's one thing to be labelled a superpower and it's pointless to be just that through your weaknesses. They say money is the root of all our problems. I say the fear of money and what it could do, what it has done, what it is doing: is the root of all our problems. Goodness is your shield and persistence your defender. Embrace these and walk unashamed. You were healed before the war-cry was sounded.

Men don't Protect Women anymore

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If some things give you the reason to fight for existence, then I dare you to protect them. The wise farmer knows well how to protect his farm and increase its productivity. So children will rise into the next generation and adults will pass on what they have learned so far in life to them. To make them at least better than they have become. The next swing proves the prowess of the first. Practice makes perfect and if progress was our only reason to live, then I'm doing a great job all by myself. Listen to the teacher and I'll school you a few things. If your life depended on it, wouldn't you defend the women in your life? Don't do it if you never needed one to exist. But why are we afraid of being overshadowed yet some of our shadows would never even shield the ones we love from the heat of the sun? Obsessed over the wrong things, oblivious of the important. What drives you? What are you chasing? It's true, mad stray dogs might be unpredictable. So we walk with our eyes open. Subscribe to my poetry it's where I scribble the things I wish I'd say out loud on a mountaintop. I give hope freely and even the heavens believe some of this things will get better. I played the blame game once and nobody won. We all lost. Lies are good to tell but the worst to live. Love is the hardest to find unless you've found some in yourself first. So it's clear, not every man is actually one. Teach your women how to teach your children. We've disguised ourselves proper but it always gets a hold of us before we get too far. Same mistakes generation after generation. So I'll dance in the moon and I'll rise with the sun. The speakers are too loud but the DJ hasn't arrived yet. The dancefloor is full of amateurs who are convinced they know what they are doing. So we are in love with ideas more than we are in love with ourselves. Pursue your truth and you won't waste anymore time. We are children of the music and our women created the tunes. You dance to rhythms you do not understand even though you disrespect the artist. Isn't that enough disrespect to yourself? Let's not compromise. Let's go back and start from scratch. It might hurt, it might be hard. But nothing feels more fulfilling than growth. You know what to do. It's in our blood and your vision is electric. Uphold the women in your life and see yourself uphold your world. I am in love with words and I will use them to fight for our women and children and find the way you could choose to follow. The problem has never been with the women. It's the men who have refused to take up their responsibility to protect. And protect here is a big word.

High Dimensions [HD]

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Elevate your concept of understanding and broaden your horizons. They say the higher you go, the cooler you become.. I couldn't agree more. The cookie is out of its jar and it's filled with niceties. A cushioned love-seat and a pillowed double-bed could only mean one thing. Broaden your shoulders and stand up tall. We are here because we arrived just in time! I guess you never saw this coming but you could have if you had opened your eyes enough. You'll meet me in high places and I'll take you even higher. I have friends in high places and I'm proud of everything they are doing for themselves. One step a time, we'll get there. Different directions and different dimensions. We keep pushing boundaries and you know we don't stop. We look above as if seeking for permission and then we do our thing. Because we know where we are coming from. We've not always been like this. You might be too late to the party but we definitely have more where this came from!

Mermaids vs. Barmaids

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If I was to choose between a Mermaid and a bartender, you'll find me at home with the mermaid. I'm not sure what tickles your pickles but my best bet is you can't really juggle the best of both worlds unless you are one as well. I beat deadlines and sometimes I'm fashionably late. Some things I should stop. I've been broke before but now I've started paying attention to the things that really matter. When you've had almost enough to drink, you don't drive. Stupor stupidity fades time away and you begin to see things. I hear when you are drunk, every girl at the club begins to look more beautiful but maybe it's because they've always been? #BlameItOnTheLiqour. Who's ugly and who's not? Who's beautiful and who's hot? I may ask myself a few more questions before they really begin to explain themselves. Sometimes, all you need to do is just ask. I've been by the shores too and yeah I met a mermaid. She was painfully beautiful. Painful to me because it was only fair that she would have been granted legs to walk around. It's that type of beauty that deserves to be paraded. She spoke with the sweetest of voices and you could tell she blew my mind. Her hair was flowing like water down her shoulders. Her eyes pierced deep into my insecurities and I felt like she already knew me. She knew how to smile. Yet even without the legs to stand on her feet, I've never been hugged better. She knew the right places to wrap her arms around me. And her chest married my chest; our hearts beating with the waves of the ocean. She was like water and nothing could hold her yet she was the type to fit into any place she found herself. I must admit, it never took me too long. & now even as we speak, I've just sent her a drunk-text.

Snapchats from a Higher Altitude

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Do it for the snap and make it quick. Snap* Snap* Then let the loving begin. Mt. Everest is ever at rest. Untroubled and distinguished so. To climb to the highest peaks, one has to climb to the highest peak. Yet, some things are obvious. You say you love me. I ask you "why?" You tell me it's because you feel it. You sound like you mean it every minute. You believe it. And that's what makes you special in my eyes. A billion stars shine bright inside them and I oftentimes stare into two galaxies.. at the same damn time. Give me wheels and I'll get you to the hills where you've wanted to go past. I'll help you climb them with the encouragement you need. We will get to the top and we will take a Snapchat picture; for the world to see.

Simplicity Cylinder

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This gas has been compressed tightly into a cylinder just like the rest. And the more I use it, the more it does not get depleted. I burn for the things I love. And slowly I turn them into delicacies served on your tables. I burn for the halls that will hear my message and turn the tables. I burn for the power of nations to know they've never needed dependence. So I'm going to be the fire that lights up your darkest nights. & the darkest hours will be your strongest. You will win because you can. You're never really challenged beyond what you can handle. So hang in there and fight like you're winning already. I know it gets harder every time you win but that's the point of it all. Growth. Would you stop if you knew stopping was giving up? Would you relax if you knew tomorrow the gates would be breaking open? Be brave and be nice. Be great and be wise. We are all headed to the places we've designed and I know I'm not settling for anything less. I know my worth and I keep adding value to it. If you don't love me now, I hope you'll love me later when you've loved yourself enough.

I am an Actress

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I am an actress. Or so I choose to think. I am your most perfect actress. Or so I choose to believe. I have danced on stages, sung into mics and became a different person for your eyes. I am an actress and I only act what I feel. I make it feel natural and easy for your eyes; clear for your mind. I am an actress. & an actress knows what needs to be done, for her to become the girl in the script, the woman in the script, the voices in the background, the air that the audience inhales. I am an actress and I never pretend to be someone I'm not. I know myself better that's why I understand others better. Fill these shoes and join the stage with me. A thousand eyes will watch me and a million others will admire me. I am captivating, I am the story. & vanity I have that I can wake to fight another day. I want to be better, to better my steps. To sharpen my voice. To shake the world. I am confident. In everything I do and in every word I say. I am creative and never will run out of ideas. I see something, I make it better. I am physically fit and if it's to dance I should dance, to dance I will dance. Brilliance is within me. Insight is what I have. I show respect and expect it back sometimes. I get professional with this. I stand tall and I stopped being shy. I work on end. Even in the weekends. I polish by rehearsing and brush clean my dancing shoes. I am an actress; and I successfully bring believable characters to life.

We will S.O.O.S

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We will save our own souls. No one out there has enough time for us. I hate when you see me shaking that's why I've really leant enough how not to. See the sun is out even if the degrees have drastically dropped. I graduated from average now I do boss tings. I never ran away from the pain; I fought my way through it. I know that you miss me and it's not my fault I made you wait. Some things we have to fight on our own. Amaze me by the stripes on your back and the freedom on your badge. I've been between a rock and a hard place and I couldn't even bulge. Believe me when I tell you I have tasted success. I got drunk on milk until someone mentioned it was Bailey's. Wake up calls in the middle of the night. Remember? You used to call me on my cellphone. But now you're distant but I haven't forgotten about you. You could be the greatest. You could beat the clock but you've been waiting on luck. I have the brightest flame shining inside me. That's why I try. There were days I stayed by myself and focused on making me the someone I've always wanted to become. A champion. And to get there, you have to do the time. I don't want to be a profession. I want to be my own name. Since then, to put it into perspective, nothing was the same. Guitar-strings sing my name and I know the pain was worth no blame. I desire to achieve so much more. I want to move mountains and that's why I dedicate myself to the things that enflame my soul. A thousand miles I have walked and a thousand times I have cried. I know where the throne sits and I'm certain my robe will fit. I'm stuck no more and I could teach you how to move on. How to be the bestest version of yourself. They want to copy instead of finding their own tune to dance to. So if you want, please save me the last dance and don't mind my soul. I have that in its best condition.

Fighting Storms

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Back in Africa, we fight storms. Whisper dirty secrets to the air and see the waters flood at your feet. Lay your head back and watch the air and the skies get clearer. I've climbed mountains, crossed rivers and journeyed across deserts in a bid to find myself. From the head to the toes, I've shivered in the cold but never has winter been colder. We are all fighting. It's sad how. Yet even Kingdoms have fought within themselves. Sometimes it's the roots that cause our problems. I've faced Mt. Kenya under a Mogumo tree and the roots, then, embraced me. I've seen better days. Yet, even worse days. It's a roller-coaster. That you should never let break you. Oh yeah, I've been to the coasts too. It's costly but it's never caused me pain to try. I dream big and I happen to love Mother Nature. The things that give me delight tremendously ignite my light. If I'd be performing at the circus today, I would be a flame-thrower. Like Oprah, throwing hope and love to each that needs it. I am generous and greatly grateful. The skies look down and wonder how I manage to keep going. Persistence. Patience. Powerful even in pain. You could tell by the dust on my shoes that I came back bearing good news. You could be a hero. You could rise from your zero. I've escaped pain by zooming into the positive and I can assume, safely, that it is working for me. I will never be dishonest with myself yet I'll never allow myself to focus on the negatives to see the bigger picture. It's pointless. Two wrongs never made a right and to fight against the rhythm of my existence is to cast a shadow above my nights. I thank the good Lord for He has kept me. He has never left me nor for a second forsook me. Shake me to the core and I'll remain standing strong. I am a believer of my abilities to do better, to grow, to overcome, to challenge myself, to breathe out fire through my words when need be; a champion among men and you too could be one.

Consistently Original

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I am a man of his words who uses them accordingly. I have ideas, a ton of them. I keep creating; I keep believing I could make something. I could give life to something and right now, anything beautiful. So I bless you as well. That you may tap into your well of unending wellness. That your vision may be distinguished and your actions complimentary. That you as well could create something new. Even if just by yourself. I believe in you. I trust you to make the right moves every time opportunities present themselves before you. You know why? Because in due time, they will sing your name. & what a beautiful name to have. See, you are unique and special but never let that for a moment distract you. It's a thin line we are walking on and it's tied tight at both ends. You don't jump too high in excitement, you might miss your step back down. Balance. Weigh your options. Refuse to be misguided and blaze your own trail. You will get there. I remember when I first came here, I was uncertain of so many things but I was willing to learn. I was confused about something's but that's when you know you need to seek the right answers. Yo will think of ideas and solutions; you will create a path for yourself. It will all make sense when you're almost there. The shortcuts sometimes could mislead us. I'm not saying it's not worth a try. Let's be there for one another in good faith and not turn our backs against each other when the going gets tough. We are our own heroes, I've said this before. And before you think of emulating, make sure you are not forcing things.

Zero Role Models

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I counted the numbers, they didn't add up. I'm looking at the graphs and pie-charts and I swear pizza has never tasted better!!! I did a Google search the other day and results of the search were fruitless. So I went to Instagram and hit the search button. User couldn't be found. So I wondered aloud, where we all did go wrong. lol The things I do sometimes, smh. But still, haven't you seen already that the stars never shine enough to lead you into their happy position? And the sun that is closest to us sometimes burns us more than we asked for or doesn't even show up at all. When you need them, sometimes you won't even find them. Save me the b.s that if I have the money, I am your role model. Save me the cheap talk that my fashion sense has promoted me to be your new role model. Flashy, flashy makes the world go blind. & so many still dare to walk without dem walking sticks. We go walking into everything and sometimes into holes. I wish you'd get me. It's that bad. I'm rolling solo and I wanted to convince you to become your own role model as well. That's a +1 and if you could follow me on Google Plus that would be 2. I know my Math and I have calculated enough to see that money is not = to happiness. I know it's silly to fight for things that are untouchable, but these are the same things that have depressed so many to their deaths. I could be humble about it and not brag about the things you do not have yet but then how would you know. So I'll make it easy, you could follow your strengths and make yourself a believer in yourself. You could become your own role model. Let you yesterday learn so much from you today, you today from you tomorrow. We've been misled enough.

Teacher's Pet

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If you have the answers to my questions, please raise your hand and turn me around. Talk to me. I see you've done your homework well and it's clear you are way ahead of the syllabus. Take your steps forward and address the classroom. You can have my chalks if you want to even go further and teach us more to a better understanding. I can tell you know what it takes to be a movie star. The casting call has been made and your name has been praised throughout the auditions. I can play this game with my eyes closed and my hands tied behind my back. You can have it all. You can take the wheel and drive me home. We could pass by a Starbucks and grab some coffee. I'm faded and you've stirred my heart full of your morning sugar. Sweet words you speak have me rolling in my thoughts sometimes. Put your money where your mouth is, action where your heart is. Effort. You're my favourite because you take initiative. I admire you because even when you tire, you never retire. I'll make you feel special even if I don't really have to. I have seen your worth and tasted your moon. I'll feed you with a spoon and the plate can be our resolve to hunt. I will gather the firewood and you can ignite our dreams. I am ready. I am prepared to prepare us a meal. A delicious meal. I will make your bed even as you lie on it. I will sing you silly lullabies and even as you've witnessed, I'd never need an alibi. So say goodbye to your worries and fears and feel so good. Here we are, it's happening. Sharpen your pencils and you've passed this test before it was written. Stay standing tall and keep growing. Let others learn from you the things that help them recollect their broken pieces. Their forgotten ambitions. Challenge others to be better. You are a puzzle I stumbled upon that am yet to unravel its marvels. And I'll keep piecing the pieces together for us and teach you how to do it right. I got you.

Tissue for any Issue

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A shoulder to lean on has never been weighed down even by the hugest boulders. I am bolder now. & I know my limits. I have my expectations but never will I take wrongful advantage. So that's a +1. For me. And for you, I guess. You could come as close as you will to my poetry and lay your head on my chest, till the morning comes. The journey has been long enough and my heart has been burdened. I thank God for your voice; it always sounds like a nice song to my ears. Come closer, I have tissues for any issues. I have some solutions for some situations. Let them know you're taken. Let them know you've found a better place with the right foundations. I hear life is short and shorter enough to live your life miserable. We attract the things we desire and we've been through the storms together. We've been through stories we can't easily tell but we'll hold on longer, at least until the morning comes. We've walked through the darkest hour already and I'm glad we stumbled on some tissues for all our issues. Thank you, father.

Don't be Dishonest

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I'll clear my name because I've never been dishonest with myself. A sheep in wolf's clothing deceives even himself. So, yeah, don't be dishonest. Don't be so modest that you'd never remember your abilities and don't be so grandiose to the point you shrink yourself out and lose you. Moderation. A perverted nation with mistaken impressions, a facade of exaggerated proportions and a ballyhoo of imagined dimensions will press itself forward, through the fabrications it weaves in and out through desperations in trying to make everything seem competent. But I am not ashamed for such. I sympathize with them. As much as we could all be able to pull strings here and there to our own benefit (sometimes detriment), this world has never been one really huge circus. Yes, there are animals. Yes, there is fun. Yes, there are some really incredible people doing incredible things, but never for a moment pretend that is all there is. Come, see the big picture with me. I saw it even before there was Photoshop. By now, probably some things might be missing, or added. I don't know about you, but fake to me always looks misplaced. Doing the right thing at the wrong time. Doing things that go against everything we have ever believed in. I blame misinformation and I blame gullibility. Credulity. We give names to the wrong things; write stories with the wrong information (just for the right responses). That's the most we've been getting. But with truthfulness comes life. When you're true to yourself, you're true to life. & life is pretty serious about some things.

Stay in your Lane

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I'll tell you about God-speed when I speak to you. You see the problem between you and I is that you fail to make sense. I've seen high mountains that I had to climb up and down to my destination. No shortcuts. The path was slippery and the rains did not help. The car was skidding and the snowstorm reduced visibility to almost zero. Now the sun is starting to burn in our eyes and the stars sparkle us through peaceful sleep. I'll try and explain my situation to you as clearly possible as I can. Of course I do not expect you to believe me but I could care less either way. You can take away from me my money, my time, my clothes but you could never take away the experiences that have built me. They say Rome was not built in one day and I say some things truly do take time. The good things; for those who hope, to those who believe. I'll be your Romeo & you could be my Juliet. But never for a second think I'll end my life to find our love. There's enough time for that. So you obviously do not know me well enough to be talking about me the way you've been talking about me. You clearly do not know me well enough to be talking crap about the things I've done you'll never know what they meant to me or taught me. Unlike you, I understand things in a clearer sense. I've taken time to work on myself. Close your eyes for a minute and see things through the eyes of your heart. There are some things you will say that I will fall in love with. There are some last minute things you'll say that could never make sense. If you do not know what you're talking about, find your peace, find your place and stay in your lane. Please and thanks.

Doing Wonders

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Shaded whispers and printed conversations, the pictures we seek when it gets complicated. The swallows are huge and the shallow waters are sinking. Can you hear the thunder shaking? Reminding me that there are things am yet to understand. Yet, I do not fear the wailing or the drunken man's slurs. I do not feed on the fears of the soul-tired man or the heartbroken maiden. I give them hope. See the colours dance in the rainbow, a place they belong. See the clouds gather high up in the sky, a home for them to dwell. The rituals of the night have been performed and the dust has settled. The bats have come out to feed and now it's time for us to sleep. But to do wonders, you have to do more than just sleep. You wake up to the tune of ambition and driven motivation. You reach there. And it's wonderful all the way. The clouds stand above the fields that truly need to be quenched and snow falls on sins that need to be covered. So we stay searching; Google is my friend.

O.G

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I'm in the trap trying to add it up. If 1 + 1 = 2, then we made it into the next altitude. We keep winning. We get our food to go because we have things to do. Now, if you'd stop judging and listen, maybe you could learn yourself something. Everyone needs a place to stand and a shoulder to lean on. Let's be helpful and let's be smart. That we can always know our value is appreciating or at least being appreciated. They will look for you when they need you. In the meantime, work to better yourself. Don't waste your time. There are many more like you who need reaffirmation. That everything will be alright. If you wanted me to say it a second time; everything will be alright. Let's not tire too early, we just got started. If patience is a thing over-rated then I guess that's why we are humble. Give me juice and a good reason to drink it. Or chase my liquor with it. We were born to thrive. So I strive to stay alive. I remixed your dough and got us some more. And now, we doing numbers. It's our time to shine. So I walked into my shopping mall and pulled out a cart. I only invest in my craft. Whatever I find it to be.

Never Forget Us

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They can never defeat us and it's painfully true. We hit and we don't miss. No matter how hard we try, we stay standing till the last man drops. The pain of the war is in its sweet victory. Once you win, you never look back and when you do, it is to feel pity for the many who fell. It's sad that so many choose to step into the battlefield unprepared. Never let emotions take the best out of you unless it's for a truth hidden inside you. Which is pointless anyways because the truth will often times fight for itself. Don't let the lies guide your conscious mind because some fear will always be involved. The ward is full of incapacitated enemies fighting a different war now. Fighting for their lives. The thing I never want for anyone is to bear the burden of regret. With defeat, some regret adds to the equation. Why would you ever regret the consequence of something you once badly wanted? The rifle is pointed to your chest and the fear in your eyes should remind you that you showed up to the wrong feast. I admire your valiant cause to defend your life but it should have never even got here in the first place. Nothing chokes like the smoke we choose to inhale by ourselves when we are yet to master its diligence. Also, I understand that practice makes perfect for you but with us in the picture, don't you think it's a bit too far beyond practice? We are beyond play now; we mean business. So, I'll ask you again, which league do you play in? You have camouflaged your heart to suit your evil desires and it's sad for you that I have mastered the art of seeing through things. You are frightened. Not sure where to start. Not sure where to run. So I'll prepare a deathbed for the ones who fall at my feet because I care enough. A thousand of them shall fall and I will remain standing. I have won countless times before without even raising a finger because one thing you should know, I do not even fight my own battles.

I Know What's Important To Me

[An Apple a Day] Croxt:

Make no mistake, I know what's important to me. I'll get wherever I want to go because I know what it means to me. I bear within me no reason at all to force my values unto other people and it's just special to know you are a favourite. I've seen bridges weighing too many kilos bearing the weight of so many other kilos without cracking under the pressure. I know best not to waste any more time and if your ears could listen, I give really good advice. I almost joined a masquerade a year ago but I no longer need to hide my face to fight for a good cause. I have been down to zero and I welcome hate but never into my heart. I watch over vast fields like a satellite and if it's information you seek, I know a thing or two that could help you find that which you seek for. To be resourceful is amazing yet to take advantage never really made sense. You can have my pillow if you want to dream better dreams and you can share my bed if the cold will keep you awake through the dark nights. I have tossed my money in casinos but it's because I know what importance it would add to me. See, the dust on the street will get into the nose of the homeless man before it gets too attached to your new shoes. Things that go into any system will normally affect the thoughts behind it and I could guess all these motion detectors never sensed me rising to the top. Or they were fine with it. It feels just right that we could be more than what we ever wanted for ourselves. Keep it low-key and let your success ring their doorbells. I've been chasing keys to my castle and it's just now I realized that they will come running into my hands when I am King enough. There's never been a reason good enough to physically fight. So never clench your fists before you've given it enough thought. Don't be scared. Everyone else is and it doesn't really make you any better if you cower. We don't need some of the things others believe we do because let's face it, we are our own heroes. And it's with time that your cup overflows and your value touches those around you. Don't spread hate no matter how much you can not love yourself. I'll step to the plate, keys in my hands and a crown on my head. I have worked to better myself; I have fought to prepare myself. When the spotlight comes flashing, I will be ready to step right into it. Mostly because, I know what's important to me.

Flimsy Fantasies

[An Apple a Day] Croxt:

3 ladies showed up today in leather jackets and almost the same lipstick. They sat together in a corner and talked about the most random things. It's leather jacket season. So everything is pumpkin-spiced and almost scary enough for the children. Halloween, baby! Yet, my costume never scared any one of them. They asked me to sit with them. And as with all good story-tellers, I kept them all laughing and thinking for close to two hours. We discussed topics from all over the place and I understood first, why they were talking about the most random things when they arrived. Sometimes the fall season also rises you up. It's only the dying leaves that fall to the wind's seductive intrigues. And they go with it, wherever it chooses to take them. The branches obviously remain. To live and to fight again another day, another season. The roots adapt and the soil embraces them firmly. This is why we have family. To protect a love and the meaning of life. So seek a family and share with them the good and help each other through the bad. Be caring enough and never too naive. Be the light in the darkness even for yourself. We are here too many of us but some choose to ignore the tides. So I'll let you breathe, even if softly. The leather pants you're wearing have defined your curves and the edges on your whole system have put me on edge. But before we even get there, here's a candle to light up the way ahead for you. Just try not to breathe out too hard in its direction, thanks.

Deal With It

[Shreds of Courage] Croxt:

When it shows up, I believe you have to deal with it without draining yourself. Draw attention on a canvas in your Converse shoes and let's make a conversation out of it. I used to drown in my own thoughts but now I gracefully swim in them. I have enveloped myself in a bubble of possibilities and I hope you can see where I'm coming from. Go tell your friends about this. I met with sorrows and dealt with them. It's the hope fire in me that ignites my strength. I'll never tire. Some decisions need quicker execution. An expensive watch on my wrist so I can tell the time to walk behind me. To be faster than the speed of light and graceful at the speed of sound is quietly great. Because then, you never miss a chance. You never delay an opportunity. When it comes calling you deal with it. If you have a problem, deal with it. If you have a good reason, deal with it. If you are not sure, deal with it. If you feel cornered, deal with it. If you can't figure things out, deal with it. If your pride is too much, deal with it. Whatever weather, deal with it. We can all make it and if you still have fears hiding inside of you, deal with it.

Unruly Poem

[For the Love of Poetry] Croxt:

We fix things. We see problems, we seek solutions. We don't let anyone distract us. And for the love of poetry, we've learnt to make our own songs. We sing from the heart, we breathe from the soul. Our tongues have tasted delights and I'm delighted to say we won't stop. When the stretch gets too far, we reach out even more. We've learnt to mind our own beeswax. We work hard enough to have something sweet to offer. Our efforts do not go unnoticed and the solution to our problems always shows up immediately when we need it. Let's look on the bright side of things, little Prince, you know you're on the right track if you feel yourself making progress. Don't let your problems gain in on you.. They give up easily. We are going fast and we should be fine. We don't worry too much and that's why we create memories that last. So am going for the numbers. They say real value should be testified. I turned a 2 and 2 and made it into a 4. No newcomers in this position, many money flipping, and I wish many of you would take the step. We know the right places to look for money because we've been made smarter and faster. I'm with the whole game if you'll never look back. Let's ride; it's gonna be a hot summer. I'm with the jumpers and you can be my landing spot when I touch down. You know I've done this before.

Magic Ndovu

[Some of the Stories I tell] Croxt:

Magic Ndovu, you might not have heard of him. My mum blessed me. She said, "May God keep it 100 with you always, in His favour." So I'll tell you the story of Magic Ndovu; the man with many stories. He had some plot twists you'd never see coming. He stayed in the moment ready for the nice things, not forgetting the bad things. So he stayed prepared. He was fast on his feet. He owned a boat and he was now used to fishing. They say the stone stays where it can't roll no more and I agree unless it's pushed. See, sometimes Magic Ndovu would push things a little bit too far. Although, always, he made sure the paths he took were welcoming. Perhaps, you can already see legends are made like this. We are tried sometimes in the things that we are weakest. Or to some point in our fears. That's why I stay saying, keep going and never be afraid. The turf might be tough but the horses will keep on racing. Magic Ndovu always made peace with his enemies. & paid if he had to pay. He treasured his friends and family and rose with them. Of course, you will have those who leave you, but Magic Ndovu seemed like the only one willing to stay.